Right now I feel stuck, right in the middle of nowhere. Theres a long to do list of things that should’ve been done a few days ago but I just don’t feel like it. I keep thinking, time, time will fix it, sooner or later. Everyday is different, sometimes its good, I feel wanted and welcomed, right now I feel misplaced and misunderstood.
What’s a girl to do? Do I just blame my unhappiness of the drenching teenage years? Or should I take responsibity? Then what? How do I fix it?
Theres a guy who I will do anything for. If he was to come back with no explanation, I would drop everything and take him back without a second thought. He’s that type of guy. I like to think that things would be different, that my feelings wouldn’t be as strong if I understood the reasons behind the break up but I’m not sure, it might but there will always be a yearning for more. I know I have to move on and let go, forgive and forget. But how could I, if I can’t help but think about the times we spent together. Its getting better yet, I can’t help but compare ever guy to him.
Maybe I really liked him because he made me feel like I belonged somewhere. He promised me a future.
Its so hard to say goodbye when I know this could’ve ended differently.